The sound of a positive pregnancy test hitting against the marble floor broke the paralyzing silence that would forever change my life…
I got pregnant at 24. I had my daughter at 25. I began chasing my dreams at 23 and I haven’t stopped yet. I would have loved to have been married to my then boyfriend, making $80,000, living in a huge house, driving an Audi, and traveling all around the world. But life didn’t happen that way… God happened. Things weren’t perfect but in reality they never are… Living life comparing myself to every other female was draining me and was changing my life for the bad.
I want tell you a secret a lot of young mothers won’t admit to… The moment I found out I was pregnant I didn’t leap for joy. I didn’t call all my friends so we could pick out baby names. I sat on the cold bathroom floor crying… ashamed… I felt like I made the biggest mistake in my life. I was more afraid of telling my mother than anything. My biggest problem was that I had let myself down and I would never be able to chase my dreams, or so I thought. I held my head down low and not for one moment did I see my pregnancy as a blessing… You see after re-dedicating my life to God I realized my daughter was never a mistake. No, I was not married. Yes, I was having premarital sex. Yes, I was on birth control. But I was weak to the pressures of society and I cracked. And God took it from there… Nine months a beautiful red headed baby girl destined for greatness was born.
“For the mind of the flesh is death; but the mind of the spirit is life and peace” Romans 8:6
We depend so much on society’s approval of our actions. Did you notice that I listed every reason why being pregnant was like the end of the world for me, and not once did I say that I was living my life the way I wanted and not what God called? More often than not we don’t stop and see whether or not we are living ours lives according to the way God has intended us too. Having my daughter forced me to slow down and take my time. As a Delta, one of my prophyte’s would always say “Be proactive not reactive.” I challenge you that in the midst of your “mistakes” to stop and choose the approval of God before you choose the approval of another sinner. He died on the cross for our sins… Let His death not be done in vain.